Making Progress

Today, I had my 37 week appointment and I am excited to announce that I am making progress!!!  Hmmm...maybe that primrose oil is working afterall.  I am currently 2 cm dialated, 80% effaced, and the baby is at station -2.  Baby still has some dropping to do so I am thinking about bringing my excercise ball to work to sit on while at my desk.  My office is in the basement, so only a few people would notice ;) Now if I could just find the pump to add some air to it...because I am sure it would flatten if I were to sit on it as is!

Other than that, I think my doctor sensed my level of stress.  Somehow he ALWAYS knows how to get the best of me and find out how I am really feeling.  I think I went from fine to tears in about 5 seconds.  I'm sure my pregnancy emotions are just getting the best of me.  At the same time, my days have been less than pleasant lately. 

My daycare has been closed for a week and a half and it has been a struggle to find back-up daycare.  Also with just 9 days left of work before my leave, I really need to be there because I am swamped...I also have zero sick days left.  So, Jace went to my mom's last week on Tuesday night because we needed something consistent for him.  My parents brought him back over the weekend and then right after they left, I got word that my daycare was going to be closed again today...I so wish I would have sent him with my mom again.  I miss him so much when he is gone, but at least I don't have to leave him with a complete stranger like this morning.  It is heart breaking to leave your child kicking, screaming, and crying as they try to hold on to you as tight as they can :(  The daycare provider also did not hesitate to inform me that she does not serve breakfast when I told her he had not eaten.  Nice.  She didn't seem pleased to have to feed him a piece of toast.  How can people be like that???  If it hadn't been for my morning meetings, I would have packed him back up and went home.  I was a train wreck the rest of the day to say the least.

As for work, I can't keep up with the amount of paperwork and testing to be done...and there is no sub for me, so I have been busting my butt to get everything completed before my leave.  I find it ironic that I have covered two maternity leaves for others over the course of the last two years.  Today, I didn't have time to eat my breakfast and I didn't get lunch until 3:00.  Have I mentioned that I. HATE. THE. LIFE. OF. A. WORKING MOM????  As much as I really do like my job, being a mom is hard enough without adding an additional full-time job.  I don't want to minimize the job of a stay-at-home mom either, because I have lived that route too and it's a challenge, but it's definitely a different pace of life.

Well, I suppose I better head to bed.  Tomorrow is a new day and my daycare is open...so hopefully things will be brighter!  Now if the sun would just shine!!!